Its been almost a year now since I last wrote something. I am now a mommy to my baby boy. God is so Good.
I find it difficult to start writing since a lot of things has happened in the cattery. When I became pregnant, I was advised by my oby not to attend to the cats personally due to the parasitic disease called Toxoplasmosis. The parasite infects most genera of warm-blooded animals, including humans. Cats have been shown as a major reservoir of this infection. But I was constantly monitoring the welfare of the cats and dogs in the shelter through their caretakers.
When I gave birth last July, i gave myself one month to recuperate. last September, I was telling my husband that I am ready to visit the shelter and that I miss the cats terribly. Thats when he decided to drop the bomb. That my most beloved queen of the cattery, Mikah, died when I was just 6 months pregnant. I had a very complicated pregnancy that they decided not to tell me.
I was heartbroken of course. During the first 4 months of my pregnancy, I always dream of her. I was looking forward to the day when I can see her, and hold her again.
I never thought that day would never come again.
Until today, I haven’t had the courage to visit the shelter.
To my dear mikah girl. I am so sorry baby. Mommy feels guilty. I should have taken extra care of you. I miss you so much.